I saw the GI about two weeks ago and it was decided that I needed to be biopsied again. I scheduled the test for May 7 because I had a trial before then. At the time, I was feeling bad--nausea after meals and the pain and other the symptoms I had been experiencing for a long time--but it was manageable. The doc even offered me pain meds that work specifically on the small bowel where my pain has been concentrated forever. I declined because I knew no matter the test results, after the test, I was going gluten free to see if it helped. The GI was in agreement and actually suggested it before I mentioned that was my plan. So, I left that appointment, ready to do what was necessary. I had a plan.
That was about two weeks ago. With the test coming, I made certain I was eating at least two glutenous meals a day. And then, I started to get worse. Every symptom has intensified. And now, I'm living in a food nightmare. I dread eating, but I seem to always be hungry, even after eating. I feel like I'm living in a constant fog and I can't concentrate. I'm tired all of the time, but I can't sleep. The pain and nausea are at all time highs. I could barely drive the other day and as soon as I got home, I kissed the kids (barely) and dropped into bed, crippled over in pain while the world seemed to be spinning relentlessly.
The Mad Scientist implored me to stop the killing myself for the diagnosis and TRex begged me start not eating what I love, but I didn't have a day to take off before the trial, especially since I didn't work Thursday afternoon through Wednesday morning.
And then it happened, the trial got wrongly adjourned (by the other side), so I gratefully moved my test up. I will finally be able to go gluten free this Thursday. When I began this journey back in February, I dreaded going gluten free. But now I'm ecstatic at the thought. I want to feel better. I need to feel better.
Gluten had better be my nemesis. I can't take any more of this nightmare.
That was about two weeks ago. With the test coming, I made certain I was eating at least two glutenous meals a day. And then, I started to get worse. Every symptom has intensified. And now, I'm living in a food nightmare. I dread eating, but I seem to always be hungry, even after eating. I feel like I'm living in a constant fog and I can't concentrate. I'm tired all of the time, but I can't sleep. The pain and nausea are at all time highs. I could barely drive the other day and as soon as I got home, I kissed the kids (barely) and dropped into bed, crippled over in pain while the world seemed to be spinning relentlessly.
The Mad Scientist implored me to stop the killing myself for the diagnosis and TRex begged me start not eating what I love, but I didn't have a day to take off before the trial, especially since I didn't work Thursday afternoon through Wednesday morning.
And then it happened, the trial got wrongly adjourned (by the other side), so I gratefully moved my test up. I will finally be able to go gluten free this Thursday. When I began this journey back in February, I dreaded going gluten free. But now I'm ecstatic at the thought. I want to feel better. I need to feel better.
Gluten had better be my nemesis. I can't take any more of this nightmare.
Believe me when I say that, if gluten IS your problem, you will feel so much better after giving it up that it won't actually be that bad. It seems so horrible - I'll never have X again. I won't be able to eat X anymore. But seriously, when you're feeling that much better than you have in a long time, X doesn't seem near as important. Good luck, and I hope you get this thing figured out!! XXOO
ReplyDeleteI hope your diagnosis is swift and that you can adjust to being GF with few difficulties.
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